A Letter To My Husband

Dear Darin,

I can’t believe it has been five months since you passed away. It feels like yesterday that you were here cooking dinner (chicken, your specialty), working around the house, driving your new Mustang, hanging out with the kids and being a wonderful husband.

To say the last five months have been difficult is an understatement. Your death has changed our lives forever. The house feels empty without you and your wonderful sense of humour. The way that you liked to teased me, the way that you let me know daily how much you loved me and our family.

Although you are no longer here, I can feel your strength and love surrounding me daily. I know that you are watching over us and guiding us. I know that you are proud of us and everything that we have been able to do in the last 5 months. I know that you are our guardian angel and will be with us forever.

We still mourn and grieve for a wonderful husband and father that we were so blessed to know. Although your time on Earth was short, you filled each of us with wonderful memories and a love that we will never forget. I see your values and strength in our kids on a daily basis. They were lucky to have such a caring, loving and hands on father.

I still remember the first time we met. We were 16 years old and I knew the moment I saw you that you would be my husband. We experienced many trials and tribulations from age 16 to when we married in 1994……but my dream came true. I found my prince and we would live happily ever after.

The ending did not turn out the way I dreamed but I need to be positive. I need to realize  and appreciate that I got to spend 17 wonderful years with the man of my dreams. We had two wonderful children together and endless days of happiness and joy. Even though our  time together was so tragically cut short, I am so thankful for everyday that we got to spend together as a family. We experienced more love, joy and happiness then many people experience in their lifetime. For that I am grateful.

I will love you forever and the rest of my life with be difficult without you. The memories we shared will get me through, our wonderful kids will get me through.  My loving parents and sister will get me through. Your loving parents, brother and sister will get me through.  So many people love you and we are all huddled together through this journey.

Love you always and forever,

Ann
xoxo

 

 

 

 

 

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13 Responses to A Letter To My Husband

  1. Beautiful. Just beautiful. No words.

  2. Angela says:

    Oh Ann!
    What a sweet, loving, moving post.
    I sit here with tears in my eyes.
    Sending love & HUGS,

  3. Bib big hugs, Ann. Thinking of you. And you’re right: 17 years w the man of your dreams is an incredible life blessing — and you will get through. You are surrounded by people, IRL and online, who care. oxo @writewrds

  4. Liz McLennan says:

    Oh, Ann. What a wonderful love letter – but how heartbreaking that you’ve had to pen it. I love the idea of him guiding you all as you navigate these sad and lonely waters – it sounds as though you shared a blessed and lovely marriage. May the memories of that bolster you as you learn to live life in different ways. May his peace be deep.

  5. Dianne @smilenwaven says:

    Beautifully said Ann and so glad you had the strength to press the send button. HUGE HUGS! xox #RIPDarin

    • admin says:

      Thanks Diane. It was the hardest post to write but I needed to share what a special love we had. I miss him so much.

  6. Glen Lord says:

    Wow beautiful and powerful your love shows strong through the words, thank you for sharing

  7. mara says:

    A life cut short, but well lived and well loved. You and your kids will always have Darin in your hearts and watching over you forever.

  8. Sandy Webb says:

    Ann- This is a beautiful post! xoxo